Thoughts of pure Crazy Randomness

its 2010

2010-01-10T14:30:00.003+11:00

its been so long, ive forgotten how to even sign into this account, then i realized i can do it through Google accounts, so wallah i am here.
things have been hectic the last 5 months, yes its been 5 months since ive updated anything and now its 2010, a new year, A NEW DECADE, totally new beginnings, i am very much looking forward to the changes in my life this year. i welcome them in fact with wide open arms. looking forward to a new place, a new perspective in many things. looking forward to completing incomplete projects in my life. i am happy i am well, i am eager to start this new decade with bright thoughts, bright aspirations full of wonderful ideas.
So the last 5 months have been great. i met a beautiful boy, i fell in love(still in love), i reconnected with old souls, i got back in touch with my self, with my spirit and soul. i went back into the happy person i am. i picked up a paintbrush and started painting again, Yes i started doing art again and that i think has completely lifted my spirit up to a new level of happiness. i made a life changing decision of moving away from the big smoke and living in the country for a year.i decided on finishing my 2nd degree, on becoming completely independent. yes 2010 is going to be a big year for me, but i am really looking forward to it, after all number 9 means completion and number 10 means new beginnings. so i welcome them, yes i welcome change and new beginnings.

I have a few artistic projects in mind. some ive i always started, some i need to wait until i move so i can start them, but i see 2010 as the year of change and the year of finally putting the ideas i have in my head into actual projects and works of art, whether they are photographs or different kind of mediums, i will achieve them .
2010 is also the year in which i will turn a quarter of a century, yes i will be 25. not sure if i am looking forward to that or not, maybe purely because i dont actually feel like a 25 year old and yes it scares me a little bit, but then i think about it and i cant wait to turn 25. its a wierd feeling

Anyways i guess thats a nice well rounded update.
i hope everyone is doing well, and i wish everyone a beautiful, magical, wonderful and amazing year.
Peace and Hugs
love
ana peaceful banana angel.

MAGIC MADNESS

2009-08-08T15:39:00.003+10:00

Its taken me a WHOLE week to recover from last weekend madness. what a weekend, i have to stay Saturday the 1st into the Sunday the 2nd of august was MAGICAL.

trip into the beyond full of colours and thoughts.
moments of pleasure combined with magical lights of randomness...
fires and trees together with love.

a wood shack was build to become shelter of mind thoughts.
moments of fear turned into jamming sessions of vocal chords.
barefooted in the bushland of the wilderness of our imagination.
Sinking in quick sand while walking in the endless dunes of the desert.
Tea and red wine became my best friends through the journey of the night.
psychedelic colours and emotions twirled all around.

morning sunrise watching the east sun rays of daylight delights.
water reflections and birds contemplations become a symphony of beautiful sounds.
strawberries for breakfast while watching the animals soak morning light.
MAGIC MADNESS

MADNESS i tell you, sums up my night pretty well.

now a week to the day has passed i still feel my thoughts taking me back. i couldn't capture anything on film, the moment was madness,I'm glad i didn't take my camera with me.

So yes not much to comment on.
The sun is out today, finally its made its presence after a mighty delay, hiding under storm, rain and wind clouds for a while....
TIME TO PLAY...
till next time
Ana Banana.
her b/w film ready loaded into her camera. its time for some nice tones...

Wild Eyes

2009-07-24T20:08:00.006+10:00

its been a while now, since ive taken a photograph, since ive written anything down, ive been hiding like a hermit crap lol. but its time to come out of the shell and get those fingers clicking clicking and my feet happy happy, i have happy feet right now, happy feet,they move all around, they cant stay still on the ground...

so i have finally made many decisions, now i just need to execute them and accomplish my goals. i cant wait, its going to be an interesting chapter of my life, but to be honest i am actually looking forward to it...

i am though a little broke, oh dear, dear dear, so ive got like 3 films waiting to be developed but no money to develop them, if they where black and whites i could do them my self, but they are not, ive been into colour alot lately. i should get back into black and white, actually i should just get into clicking the camera away and away, all my cameras in fact are in hibernation hahaha.(it is winter after all down here down under).

so that's about it.. i am feeling much better than i was before, still lost but finally with some kind of purpose.

till next time
enjoy
sing sing sing

Ana Banana.
Wild Eyes, by Jesse Harris

Byebye

Blindsided

2009-07-14T22:54:00.004+10:00

i am so lost
i have no idea what i want in life, i am living day by day, even wasting some days away. now i don’t know what i will do, leave, stay., i really have no clue, there is no one who can help me but me, and me is not doing to well,? i am depressed but i am happy, its like dire straits you know. uncertainty of thing and of things that will happen, i see everyone has a plan and i don’t have plans, its like i am wasting my time away but i don’t mind, i really wish i was a fish or some kind of bird, so i can swim or fly away into the unknown every single day.. my thoughts are all over the place, confusing and just lost. its deliciously complicated. its wanting what i have but not wanting what i have, its a confusing sensation that i feel every single moment of the day, every single second of my existence. And why? There is no answer, which means there shouldn’t even be a question. i am writing you because i feel in some way you understand me.... do u???
i hope your doing well. i am but i am lost, lost and in not the kind of way i like to be lost.
Ana
blindsided by Bon Iver

Dont FIght It

2009-07-13T12:34:00.005+10:00

Today is the day
I am done with all this bullshit. its been going on for long enough.
I will make a decision and stick to it. i am tired of it all. i am DONE. today i am done. I WONT FIGHT IT ANY LONGER.
i have very hard weeks ahead of me and its good to know that there are people out there who mean so much to me that will help me get through it all.
Dont get me wrong this is a positive note, not a sad one. its about courage and strength, ability to put my foot down and say "no more", i feel fantastic, very scared and tired and fed but, but fantastic at the same time. really.
Now its time to for change, now its time for movement, now is time to express my self to my full potential. i WONT FIGHT IT ANY LONGER.

These images are from tasmania, found more and i was happy with them.
so enjoy and enjoy the song, which is: Don't fight it, by The Panics.

Thats about it
Love always
ANA BANANA

Friday I'm In love

2009-07-10T15:19:00.011+10:00

Its Friday,
i like Fridays, its the beginning of the weekend,
i like weekends, they make me happy and i like to be happy.
happy is good,
happy is wonderful.

Yesterday i went with my very beautiful friend blossom awesome,(real name Kate) to see the exhibition of Salvador Dali. Its the 2nd time ive gone to it and i was even more amazed. i really would like to pick his brain, or life in his paints, jump of rocks, melting clocks, see through his eyes and slide down his quirky mustache.
The SUN finally made its presence yesterday here in Melbourne, It was much appreciated. A beautiful Sunny Winters day. it was great. we walked around, brought things that needed to be brought, ate some very beautiful PHO, baked some cookies and ate some ice cream, oh great day.
I Also developed some rolls of film, a test roll of my Coloursplash came, one i took during the day and a surprise one i found laying around, it turns our that the surprise roll of film was from my trip to Tasmania in April, and my oh my wonderful images where discovered. The more i think about Tasmania the more i fall in love with it.

Ill leave u with some images from yesterday,
HAVE A BEAUTIFUL WEEKEND EVERYONE.

Blossom the Beautiful

Dali exhibition

Ana banana and Blossom awesome.

Dali

Blossom and I

Ana banana, the girl in the red rights, people spot me a mile away.

Melbourne

last but not least ME

So i leave you with two songs today, Friday i am in love by the Cure and Friday on my mind by Easy Beats

Enjoy Ana Banana.

If we want it - it's right

2009-07-06T20:45:00.001+10:00

I have had a very random weekend, its been good and i have enjoyed my time.
i still miss a certain someone alot and i miss my family too. i love my life here but i really think its time for a DRASTIC CHANGE, otherwise i believe i might(WILL) go insane.
I ordered a Coloursplash camera of lomography last week and today i get a msg on the door that they tried to deliver it and no one was home, so i called them and it should be redelivered tomorrow yeah...cant wait to play with it...

Here are some Black and White's for today's post. ENJOY

These are some shots i took last time i was home visiting my parents.
indonesia2008/2009

I hope everyone is doing welll
Song of the day is by Thomas Dybdahl- If we want it- It's right.
I choose this song for 3 reasons, One: reminds me of my friend linn
two: it takes me back to my years at university, being in the darkroom, developing black and white photographs and smelling all the chemicals. i played his songs on and on every time i was in the darkroom, for some reason they helped me concentrate and work well.
and three: I love his VOICE and this SONG

ANA BANANA

TODAY

2009-07-04T02:29:00.007+10:00

Today

Today i really miss you

Today i want to fly

Today i need to fly

Today i want to swim

Today i need to swim

Today i Really miss you

I think the pictures Today speak for themselves...
Everyone Be safe
Ana Banana

todays song,

Today- Smashing Pumpkins

Once I Was...

2009-06-28T19:49:00.008+10:00

The weekend was great. its Sunday night now, and i await next week with anticipation, i will do random things, i will see new things, i will learn new things and i will soul search and hopefully find an answer to one of the never ending questions that run through my head endlessly without stop...

i recently developed 15 tolls of film, of all kinds of film, some i had even forgotten and i was glad to see the results. i have also have like 10 more to develop and at least another 10 that are "misplaced" somewhere around my room. i don't really know where they are but hopefully they crawl out of their hiding places and into my eye and i can finally develop them..

I as i have said before, love taking shots of feet. Why because i feel i have the biggest connection to them, i like to show where i am, what's underneath me etc.. so here is a little collection from the latest rolls of film.

Gathering, they didn't even notice.

Mine and my favorite hat.

Again, they didn't even notice.

In the hammock.

Shadows i also love shadows.
Shadows

Shadows

Strange Patterns and colours i love too.
strange dimensions

Tree Branches

Dark Corners

dark corners

light corners

Thats it for now, i hope you have enjoyed this very simple post.
I look forward to this new week. the end of June, the best month.hahaha.
I miss a certain someone right now so much.
love
Ana Banana.
I will leave you with a song like always, a song that i love and that brings a lot of memories back. Tim Buckley, Jeff Buckley's father in case u guys are wondering if there is any relationship with the name there. Tim Buckley-Once I was.

Rollin' Stone

2009-06-26T21:18:00.013+10:00

Elephant 1948

Today was a crazy day, i went to see something that finally took me where i should always be, my subconsciousness, mine and also from a mad mad mad genius mind) and i really enjoyed it. Salvador Dali is time stopping, he knew it too, he knew it was mad, and extraordinary and he was not modest, but that was for me his charm. Today was magical, all day in his work. Even though i did not see my favorite painting by him(the red one above),tho i did not finish all the rooms in the gallery so i will come back soon, i brought a ticket that gives me access to the exhi for the remaining days. i did tho see my favorite self portrait he did(below). which was great. Self-portrait with the Neck of Raphael, circa 1921

SO yes that was part of my day, random like always, brougth some books, 4 to be honest, one is a great travel where is wally book. hahahah cant wait to start searching for him. i sometimes think he doesn't want to be found. Another one about a Colombian girl, the rum diary by the great Hunter S. T. and a nick cornby one, see how that one goes..
Oh as many of you know, Micheal Jackson died, don't think i am unkind and emotionally bankrupt as a friend put it but i was not that sad he died.. i mean yes he was a great amaising musician, but (wait i will just copy and paste my very talented beautiful kindred spirit friends words. (SARAH CARTER, or saz, or king saz or how every you may or may not know her by)

"i am NOT emotionally bankrupt. trust me. the lion king made me cry.
yet watching the news, then seeing the MJ related status updates flooding my home page made me feel...nothing..??
i am not a callous bitch. let me justify. 1. i didnt know the guy personally (duh). 2. his kids can walk around maskless now. 3. i have mourned his musical death since 1995 anyway. 4. Gavin Arvizo, Jason Francia, Jordan Chandler.

although point number 4, i have a feeling, will be glossed over in the wake of his death in the same manner suharto's corruption was glossed over when he died. death makes the heart grow fonder, no?
Rest in peace MJ."

OH yeah Farrah Fawcett also died today. oh and apparently Harrison ford and Jeff Goldblum died too. hahaha but in all honestly Farrah Fawcett did sadly pass away after her battle with cancer...
so rest in peace beautiful charlies angels woman with the golden hair and killer body...

TOMORROW i get my 15 rolls of film back and i cant wait to see and discover whats in them, i have about 10 more to develop, but money issues are very much alive right now, so i rather wait a bit longer...

i could go on and on today, but i am off to see a gig.. so till then, ENJOY AND DANCE DANCE DANCE

i leave you with some of the images i took in Tasmania.
love
ANA BANANA
song of the day: Muddy Waters-Rollin' Stone

Derwent River, Tasmania june 09

Wanderer, Tasmania June 09

Derwent River, Tasmania June 09

Wanderer, Tasmania June 09

city lights are different than forest fires.

2009-06-22T19:18:00.006+10:00

I am back,
so i went to Tasmania 2 weeks ago today, to see the snow, to celebrate my 24th, to have some fun, to see my monkey and to relax and sort the many many thoughts that run through my mind endlessly without stop. i accomplish to do all of the above plus more.
one down thing that happened was i took maybe one roll of film the whole entire time i was there, its not like there were not many fantastic and random opportunities to snap at, but to be frank i was just not that into carrying any sort of camera with me, yes a photographer by trade/passion and not inspired to carry her camera, my gosh have i lost it, or have i simply just lost the inspiration for the time being? someone help me because i cant simply find the solution... i did though sketch and draw like a mad person, which is good, because it shows i am still creative and don't always have to be carrying a camera, i think that's maybe the issue here. no?

So what now, well sort out my life, figure out my ideas, my dreams and live them.
I finally 24, need to do something i actually enjoy again... i need to live on my own and i need to maybe seriously get lost for a while.. How should i leave everything behind without hurting so many? that is still something i have not figured out but i know i will have the answer soon, its there, at the back of my head, i can feel it pressing and wanting to come out and explore, so stay tuned to that.

So yes cant wait to develop the roll and see the very few images i took... i will hopefully have the memories though in my mind(unless i really loose it) to prove the joyful times of playing in the snow for the 1st time, i made a snow man and everything, it was surreal and i thank Karl so very much for such a wonderful day.

My birthday was the most relaxed one I have ever had as well, chilled by the fire and played with sparkles. it was seriously fun... i didn't wear a bra, nor did i wash my hair for most of the time i was there and i didn't care. I became one with nature and it was fantastic. now back to the city life, where bills, and stress and more stresses take alot of my time...

So yes that's all for now, i could go on and on, in a very rambling mood at the moment, but i don't want to take more of your time.. so till next time. enjoy the moment and jump to reach the sky, listen to the birds sing and dance with joy at every moment possible

Ana Banana Angel
p.s i want to post this song again, cus its been on my mind for a couple of days now.. so the name of the song and the tittle shall be different
Kiss with a Fist

Accross the Universe/ lucy in the sky with diamons

2009-06-07T18:14:00.004+10:00

Ive had such a random, magical, trippy, pshyc, crazy weekend.
Things involved in the making of the crazy weekend are/were,

Good company,
Friends
Randoms who became friends
fire, walking,
tripping, mushrooms,
cookies, tea,
trains, freaking,
Tunnes, Moon,
dancing, painting,
buiilding, destroying,
music, acid,
lights, art,
potatoes, heat,
cold, chess,
and many many more things.

Now i am off to Tasmania to see the snow for the 1st time, to see Karl(monkey pants), to CELEBRATE MY 24th BIRTHDAY(which is on Tuesday the 9th of June), to relax, to dance and to do many more things that i cant write down because a. i dont like to plan and b. they have not happened yet so i cant write about the future. hahaha..
i hope everyone has a beautiful June, this is the middle month, the greatest month(that's cus i was born on this month and i love it) so where ever you may be, ENJOY IT and remember DANCE DANCE DANCE..

So till then, ENJOY LIFE, SMILE, and once again DANCE.
Ana Banana.

and like always i finish with the songs from the tittle of this entry, i couldnt choose so i put 2...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fO4RfVeOyRQ across the universe by the beatles
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=A7F2X3rSSCU and this one too, Lucy in the sky with diamonds. beatles remind me of the weekend.

kiss with a fist

2009-05-31T06:42:00.005+10:00

hello hello
so the internet is still really slow, its pissing me off, but only a few more days and it will be back to normal, i have also discovered 20 rolls of film that need to be developed, a few 120 and the rest are all 35mm, but i can wait to discover the photographs in them, who knows whats in them. gosh i forget what i capture, but that's why i love analogue because once u develop them you find hidden treasures you never knew u had or had forgotten you had.. hahaha simple things make me happy, they do i promise..
its been a random week, not much been happening, but its been good, friends came over for dinner on friday, gosh i had forgotten how much i enjoy cooking. cooking for your self is boring i must say, its better when you share that moment with someone else and when there is wine involved offcourse. i do love VINO i have to confess... specially red wine... oh joy joy joy...

its finally freezing here down under, winter is finally upon us, arghh the wind is just horrible... but its sunday today and in a few hours i shall be going to a flea market, oh how i love them dearly. cant wait to find something burried upon piles of others ppl's crap. hahaha another joy joy joy... i shall be going down to tasmania in the near future which also makes me happy. not sure the dates yet, but i cant wait to give the monkey a big big hug... its also my birthday on the 9th, gosh 24, what a crazy age, its insignificant. right before the big 25 and to be honest that number gives me the creeps, 24 not 25. i dont like the number 4 its creepy in a way i cant really explain...

anyways i shall go and take a shower now. its 10 to 7 in the morning and my friend will get here in a matter of minutes plus my internet will die soon. 7oclock comes and i go back to slow slow dialup. fucking broadband and its usage limits, only a couple of days, tho its been good, i have ralised how much i am dependent on the net now days, to communicate, to research and to explore. hahahaha lets go out and play yes lets go out and play... play play play outside kids... go out and smell the trees, flowers, the wind and soak up the light....

till next time..
yours truelly
ana banana..

HOW IS EVERYONE DOING ON THE LAST DAY OF MAY?

i end with florence and the machine-kiss witha fist..
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tpsDegqioVA

this polaroid reminds me of times of crazy conversations, crazy moments and magical sensations

slow

2009-05-25T14:42:00.003+10:00

So my internet i think is over the limit, which means that broadband becomes like a really slow dialup connection, does anyone else remember the shitty dial up connections, gosh, it takes for ever for anything to load up. it sucks, so i guess i wont be using the internet much until we either 1. pay and get it back to normal, 2. let it be and wait till the bill comes and 3. use the internet from 3am to 9am where it becomes normal agian.. hmm i think ill go for number 2... so thats it, hope everyone is having a great time.. lolenjoy and speak and see u yall soon.... ANA BANANA.

Dazed and Confused.

2009-05-22T00:34:00.008+10:00

So today was an interesting day, i told u guys i cleaned my room, hahah well today i brought a brand new vacuum(that word looks so dirty to me)cleaner. gosh i am becoming tidy, what is happening to the world, its nice tho, but my room seems so empty and big and its freaking me out, tho i am happy its clean. tomorrow we have a house inspection and my fucking landlord will be tagging along with the real state, gosh that woman gets on my nerves. imagine if you will the mother in the movie Requiem For A Dream. that's my landlord tho a little bit worse, she is a nosy bitch, who thinks she is the bomb who annoys the fuck out of me, but because i dont take shit from her, and i speak back to her(she talks and talks and never lets anyone else say a word) well i am the one who always sees her, i think the rest of my housemates are afraid of her. to be honest i cant be fucked with her either. oh did i mention when she speaks, she speaks int he third person, its the most comic thing.. so yes she is coming tomorrow, and oh my, my day is just wonderful because of that. hahaha

So apart from buying a vacuum cleaner today, i painted something wonderful today, i think i will apply for an exhibition (a post card one). for those who don't know, for those kinds of exhibitions the works have to be 30x30x30 no bigger, so i might enter 3 works, two paintings and one photograph. or maybe even mix media, i don't know yet, i have until next week, and its one of the gallery spaces i like. so should be good if i do...

I also cleaned the front garden today(yes i know who is this, Ana cleaning, no way hahaha)... it was a nice day, tho i think there was something in the air all day, i was feeling uneasy, nervous or something for no reason. actually there is a lot happening with my life, things that i rather not get into, but i am happy. and i have no fucking idea why. i like this euphoric feeling to be honest...

Its blossom awesomes bday on saturday the 23rd, and oddly enough she turns 23. hahah gosh that girl means the world to me.

In other news i really miss my monkey tho, which maybe is what is making me uneasy. but i know that he is thinking and missing me too, so that calms me down.. life is just the way it is and time is needed for us both to grow, learn and most importantly BE... its just i miss my best friend u know. gosh its wierd how close we got so quickly. its like we always new eachother somehow.sometimes i still cant believe it.

Anyways i think thats it for now. i better be going. but like always i will leave you with the song of the day.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-eIwfym0TbY

love always, be safe and watch out for that monster under your bed..
ANA BANANA ANGEL

Lived in Bars

2009-05-20T19:28:00.010+10:00

I’ve decided that the title of each entry should be the title of a song, after all a lot of my work is named after name of songs. I’ve noticed a lot of people though this. Who knows why? Its one of those things that really intrigues me

Today i cleaned my room, and i found many buried treasures. i had totally given up on the idea of finding my favorite pair of sun glasses, I thought i had lost them on some crazy adventure, but no i found them, buried under a lot of more forgotten things, such a pencils, pens, coins, scarf and books. Man I own a lot of books, book of all kinds of things, I’ve fallen in love with books all over again I think. I wish I read more when I was younger. It’s something I regret. But then again I was dips in oils and inks from head to toe, through my fingertips and all over my clothes. Poor mom, I remember her telling me off because I had made a mess, but then she would always tell me, go paint, go do your thing. So I did… something else I thank my parents is for not influencing us into watching TV or playing with electronic things, at home everything was about culture, art, sports, and the outdoors, I only wish that when we moved to indo, we had more nature around us, that’s another thing I would of wanted. But then again look at me know, I appreciate it even more.

I am really into cat power today, she has such a fantastic voice, her lyrics and her rhythm just melts my heart. it makes me Happy, she makes me happy, music makes me happy.

Here i am today

One thing i enjoy the most,is to sit somewhere, or lay somewhere, look up and see the clouds move. i can seriously do this for hours and hours. just give me a clear sky and some clouds and you have me hooked.

i would love to own a plant like this.

take me back where i belong.

so yes i love clouds.

and collecting slides, random slides, i go into 2nd hand shops and find them, or while walking down the street, like i did these...

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I found this awesome gallery space the other day while walking with some friends around the city, we where on an Art Quest that day and i think i fell in love with MELBOURNE all over again, and i cant really understand how that could even be possible because i have never fallen out of love with Melbourne, i guess its just ive re discovered how much i actually love this place.. yes that's it....

anyways i better leave everyone, ive taken enough of your time, but thanks for giving me 5 minutes of your busy busy day....

Love
Ana
p.s i end like always with the song of the day.this one is it for today, because cat power rocks my world..
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MVGgGW1ZalY
Adore this song (copy past)

First day of my Life

2009-05-18T16:56:00.014+10:00

Hi gosh its been a while,
what have i been up to?
well to be honest ive been stuck like glue to my work. painting, drawing, sketching, taking photographs, writing, music and jumping among a few more crazy things...
how about you?

Espy Tripping

Espy tripping
karl back in feb, dancing to a beautiful live band.

Do you like tea with milk or without milk? i like it without, excapt chai tea, which obviously wont be a chai without the milk. last night with a friend, we went into an indian place and orderd tea. they brought us some crappy english breakfast/earlgrey tea with milk and bubbles. it was so gross, i was waiting for some nice tea. no that did not happen.

I am always happy when it comes to moonlight sessions.

Train spotting

The muse... enough said, that person in two days brought me back from a place i rather not go back to.. i dont know him well but i thank him always.

Walking, i have alot of photographs of my feet, why well because i love feet, and not in a fetish kind of way, but more in a admiring way, i like to take photographs of feet. show where i am going or/and where i've been.

'Yarra tripping'
Something i love doing. this activity includes,sitting by a river,sea,beach,mountain,forest,garden etc... friends, sun, camera, beer, smokes, book(if alone) and sketchpad. always.

Dancing in circles is one of my favorite thigns to do too. it blows my mind..

I do enjoy collecting leaves, plants and seeds. flowers too, dry them up and make a collage.

I wish i lived near there.. i would never leave, one day.

Love climbing trees.

Thats it for now i think, so till next time. have a good night sleep, soak up the sun as much as you can, dance, drink, laugh, love, eat, jump,sing, walk, learn and fly as high and much as you can...

ANA BANANA.
Oh before i go, listen to this song..

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=o5rhhQbyYV0

its been a long time

2009-04-22T16:51:00.006+10:00

Its been to long, to long to even comprehend what has happened to my life,to my art, to my spirits, to my emotions to everything around me and my world has changed so much since i last typed a few paragraphs and showed something here. its been beautiful, its been sad, its been hectic, its been wonderful, its been intense, its been gently. ive been happy, ive been sad. i have learn, danced, fucked(up) swam, sang, flown, walked, seen, spoken, dreamed, quit, shared, gotten lost, moved, and made many journeys and friends along the way...
i don't think i could put the year that has past into any categories or emotions, because i have felt every single one of them. its been crazy and i have loved it. tho they have been up and downs. i have still learnt and grown and my life has been for the better.

2009 started good
2008 ended good
2009 is ok so far.
who knows what this year will bring, so far its been ok. ive had a wonderful time, but i have also been completly lost and not in the way that i like to be lost. but its ok, ive taken a few random trips here and there. actually all i have done this year is trip out. its been great hahahaha. my head has been lost, in the good way and in the negative way. yes the WORD for this year so far is LOST...

Thats i think all for now, lets see where the road will take me. i have just come back from tasmania the land of beed and sea food as some would say. hahaha. no its sucha beautiful place. beautiful landscapes, infact landscapes you would go crazy for if you liked landscapes. i like landscapes so i went a little bit mad. actually i have always been mad, so there is not much change there, but landscapes that would make ppl crazy i am sure... the freshness, the pureness oh magical.
Ana
everyone remember counting sheep to sleep doesnt always work.

Lazyness with heaps to do

2008-02-05T13:15:00.001+11:00

hi everyone.

gosh i feel like the worst photographer in the world. i havent picked up a camera in weeks, i just cant be fucked. yes i cant be fucked, no not really its just i have been having the most stressfull weeks i have had in a long time.
finding a house, finding a place to move in, traveling by train for hours on end(i hate trains arghhh) going here going there, seeing this house, seeing another house,m finally finding a house i like, paying the rent(having no money) moving out from the old place. packing up, cleaning up, renting a van o move my shit, arghhh. paying my masters course(no money again) accepting the offer, getting my marks sorted out, begging the university to pass me, finally passing me, sending the stuff, trying to figure out where to pay, the heat has been NON TOLERABLE.. and i just cant wait to be moved in my new place(love the room my god its like a studio in it self.. loves it)
anyways thats about it for now.
just bussy bussy, but while i was packing i found heaps of rolls i never developed. so cant wait to develope them and see what happens.
ana
Randomness from my JOURNAL

2008-01-22T17:03:00.000+11:00

So here i am, another day another post...
i have been really enjoying my time latetly, looking at all the images from vietnam, its been great, i can made 2 folios which i would very much like to use in for something, either exihibitions or shows, i need to look more into it.... ideas ideas ideas, need all to be developed lol.
So finding a place to move into, is not as easy as i thought, there are just so many places, and ive found good places, and now i am just waiting to hear back from them.. i need to move and find a place ASAP.. lol i really need to move...
so yeah thought i would put down some of the images i've been working with for the past few days. all from my recent vietnam trip..

I took this image of this Flower H'mong girl in Bac Ha market, in northern vietnam. she wasent very happy, she was buying veggies from this lady and she wasent happy being ripped off..

I remember this day, it was totally foggie and very difficult to photograph. yet i manage to produce great images from that day, this is a lady from the Red Dzao Tribe, in Sapa, Northern Vietnam.

This image was taken just as she scream at another old lady, she made me laugh. Bac Ha Market, Northen Vietnam, Lady from the Flower H'mong Tribe.

Took this image in Bac Ha market in northern vietnam, on a sunday. i just loved the contrasts it gave me.

I took this image in Hanoi, by the lake, i admire this kids for a while, they stood there for as long as i remember, it was great. dont know why but i enjoyed watching them.

Thats it for now i guess

till next time.

ana

Vietnam and the whole Xmas Fuzz

2008-01-14T12:38:00.000+11:00

Well its been a while since ive written, alot of things have happend since.. i finished my degree, i got into a masters(which means more studying but i have made my peace with it, its only a year and half), also i have gone and come back from Vietnam. spend Xmas and New years there, heaps of fun, meeting new ppl, seeing new things, learning new cultures, learning the history and exploring the landscapes... t

Vietnam is such a diverse place, such country full of beauty and culture.. full of rich history, some good some bad, yet the people are so derterment and rich in culture.... loved every moment of it, i wish i couldnt have stayed longer, but duty(real life) calls and sadly i had to come back...

The place was fantastic for photographs, and i didnt hesitate to take full advantage of it... so here i leave you with a new images from my trip.. just a few for now..

hope everyone is having a beauitufl time in this Brand NEW YEAR 08... wish everyone love, peace and happiness.
ana

Old lady and a baby in Bac Ha market
An old Black H'mong old man in Sapa

I love her expression, her mom was putting on shoes and she couldnt care less. Flower H'mong kid. Bac Ha
Red Dzao, very good barganers, very pushy Sellers.. Sapa

Her eyes just captivated me, Flower H'mong People tribe..

been a while

2007-11-19T16:58:00.000+11:00

well hello
way to much has happend since i last wrote i think. not sure when the last time was actually.
done with university, all finished.. which is great.
the presentation of my folio went well and was very much liked by everyone,which was good. it was simple and without complications like most of the ones out there. so yeah..
I have My grad exihibition this friday, so much to do, too little time.. everyone is totally un organised and it will be a total disaster but that is not my fault and to be honest hardly care lol.

had a really awesome day last wednesday when we went to cup. it was fun.
thats about it.
i should post some pictrues up. i have scanned so many my computer has no memory lol...

this will become a travel blog once i hit vietnam i think..
anyways off i go, to have some green tea.
till next time
ana

To little time, to much to do

2007-10-17T12:51:00.001+10:00

I have no time
time is running out
i have no time
time is running out

i hate this place. i really do, its driving me insane, i have so much work to do and 2 weeks to do it in and i cant get my mind around it, to much to do, to little time. oh my god. i am going insane

this is where i want to be right now,

instead of infront of a goddamn computer making a damn movie thats taking to long to fucking edit...
I have so much work i could upload and show but i havent not had the time so scan nor to edit it.. just to much to do. and to think i want to do a masters in this, oh gosh, what do i get my self into... seriously

apart from that life is fantastic.(need to have a bit of optinisim in me right now)
peace
ana

Random Rambles

2007-10-13T16:31:00.000+10:00

Well

I haven't done much latently to be honest, been concentrating on finishing some assignments i have to do for university which have taken over my whole way of living. but its only for a few more weeks and it will be over and then i can enjoy some time off and go to Vietnam and enjoy my time there.
Vietnam is going to be an awesome trip. i haven't traveled much latently(unless its around Australia) and I've missed it. so glad ot be going there. cant wait to see what i encounter and what i feel. what i see and what i take with me along the journey. making it form the north to the south in a month with 3 more friends. so its going to be a learning and building experience for all of us. cant wait to see what body of work i will produce.

my final folio is going well, learning and experiencing new things with this. its been a sorta life building exercise the whole body of work and its good to know that at least i can try and produce something that its not just work but that has some kind of meaning to me in a very profound way.

anyways this is some of the images ill us for my final folio. the idea is complex but sorta complicated in way, the body of work is not diverse and i like that.

ATOLIA

LEMON TREE BAY

BLIND THROUGH BLUE

THROUGH THE TRESS

thats it peace
ana

A new chapter if this book i call Live

2007-10-09T15:38:00.000+10:00

Well
i thought that i would get rid of my old Blog from wordpress and start a brand new one here. a new sorta chapter of my life i may call it, i am not sure what to expect. hopefully i get motivated and dont let this blog drift into just another piece of bullshit on this big wide world we call the internet..

I thought i would begin by saying that finally in less than 3 weeks i will finish my undergraduate bachelors in Visual Arts, Photography media and i cant wait.

for those who dont know me, my name is ana m angel i am a 22 year old who comes from colombia and is now living in australia..
i have been interested in art all my life and hopefully will be interested in art for the rest of my life..
i live my life each day as it where my last and i am glad to be living with that philosophy because it helps me be free..

thats about it for now.
hopefully i can come back laters and tell you and show you about each of my days and my body of art work..

ana mercedes angel